Back in the saddle again!

Hello everyone!

Well, I think it has been over a month since I have published anything on this blog sight. My motto is "slow progress is better than NO progress"! :o)

I am partnering with my two friends in weight watching and exercising. This is day 3...my goal this week is to journal everyday. So, far so good! I haven't eaten perfectly, but at least I am holding myself accountable!

Exercising is the next hurdle. I have had a lot of pain in my back and shoulder so I am finding it uncomfortable to workout...I think my lack of activity is contributing to this pain. I pray that I God will grant me the strength I need to do what needs to be done!

I am realizing that this all about my willingness to surrender to the Lord. I can not do this on my own. The Bible promises that in my weakness He will be the strength that is needed. Any success that happens will be all for His glory. I have tried and tried and tried...with NO success at all. This is not something I can do. It has got to be all God.

In saying that, I wonder, what does it mean if there is still no success? Does God want to leave me this way? Is it simply my fault again...not being able to truly turn things over to God. This is where the frustration with my weight problem begins. I start over analyzing everything and then...I want to eat something! What a terrible vicious cycle!

"Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

I like this prayer, but really it will not be me changing anything. I think I need to spend more time with my Father...getting to know Him better, and letting Him show me who I am in His eyes. I know that is scary for me...I don't like what I am afraid I will see--short comings.

Well, that is enough of my rattling thoughts for now. I will be back again before a month has past. God bless us in our endeavours!